There are things in my life that I wish I could take control of. These things however, aren’t things that I should have control over, like what foods to eat, or if I should buy that jet-ski or not. No, these things are big things, things and issues in the grand scale of life. These are things and situations in which I wish I could say something to persuade a different outcome.
In these certain situations, I can clearly see what is wrong and what needs to be done to bring change, to make things right, or to make them the way that I think they should be. However, every time that I step in and try to take control into my own hands, I get nowhere. As much as I want to and feel that I should correct, point out the mistakes, reveal ignorance and bring light to poor choices made that are causing things to de-rail, It’s not my place to. This is tough for the human man inside of me, feeling that I can take control of and fix the issue on my own. Surely if I can fix a car, I can fix this issue, right? Well, the reason for why my attempts to fix and change these issues fail is simply because it’s not meant for me to control and fix these issues.
God is the mechanic in these issues. The reason why my attempts are not working is because God does not want me to take this upon my shoulders. God is telling me to back off. I cannot fix something that isn’t mine to fix. These issues belong to God, not me. In trying to take control of these issues and fix on my own, what I’m really doing is not trusting God, I’m selfishly trying to take control of something that belongs to Him, something that He wants full and complete control over and is rightfully His. In letting Him take control, it allows me to put my full trust in Him, which can be hard to do sometimes, thus why my manly flesh wants to take care of these issues myself, and thus why I usually get nowhere.
God doesn’t want me to take care of these things on my own because in doing so, my attention and trust are divided. God doesn’t want half of me or my attention, God wants my fully undivided attention. He wants nothing but a personal relationship with me. In seeking a relationship with Him over seeking ways to fix silly life problems, I now begin to realize that the issues are in His hands. My life purpose is not to try and control life, but to seek Him and enjoy life through Him and with Him, for all that it brings. He is good and perfect. He will take care of these issues on His own and in His own perfect timing.
I’m in a process of letting these issues go, seeking only a relationship with God and trusting everything to Him.
It’s time to let go and let God.
Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not upon your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your path.”
Matthew 6:33 “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”
80% God’s way and 20% your way doesn’t work.
Never before have I hurt so much.
When God’s standards seem too difficult, we simply stir in some of our gray with His black and white to create something new, something comfortable, something mediocre. Although comfortable, we remain as ensnared by our sin as our forefathers were, and our conscience dims until we can’t quite tell what’s right or wrong anymore.
Ramming the stake in the ground and making the commitment to follow God’s standards without compromise halts the flow of old poison into our branch of the family tree. Completing the purification process means pouring mercy and grace into our homes throughout the years, and we do this by following the principles of mutual submission and by loving in the midst of weakness. This way of behaving is not a one-way street.
Every Man’s Marriage, pages 131-132